What Helps Me Shrink..Pink Finsbury Personal Size

If you read my little nook, you know that I'm on this epic journey to lose literally half myself in weight. Now it has been a year since I started this journey, but the last few weeks, I decided I needed a tool to help me stay on track, keep focused and remind myself of my achievements, because when your goal is so huge...you forget to celebrate the little milestones...and they are the MOST important.

So I ordered a pink personal Finsbury because deed down we both know I'm a girly girl lol, and I wanted something very different from  my brown leather beauties. Because I'm not as precious with this one as my gillio, she has a charm and a very laid back feel to her.

She is holding some of the overflow from my malden, since my gillio is a wallet, some of my 'decorating' loves got the chop!

some washi tape, some flags some see through tabs and some post its. Nothing too fancy but we have pockets may aswell use them! Not that I decorate my health one she has a purpose but hey I'm an artist, I need colour with me. Even if its just to look at.

under my fly leaf is just a reminder to myself, being a total emotional eater I need to stay on point...I also have a lucky bear pen loop attached to my fly leaf in hot pink, which holds a coleto 4 barrel pen.
the finsbury came with 2014 inserts...and because I wanted to use it straight away, I had a set of 2013/2014 dodo inserts which I was keen on for my personal...but decided to throw them in here for my food tracking each day. A blank pages for notes, and general things I need to remind myself.

I move these with my weeks as reminders...they are progress photos and also under the quote, is one of my starting photos at my biggest, my costco ID photo...to keep myself in check...these really do help...they make me accountable...to remind myself that I dont want to go back to where I was...it was killing me.

I print out my weekly workouts from my trainer and best friend, and a blank page for tracking times if I am asked to track how long I do something for each round, these pages go between my week as I use them daily, the finsbury is usually stuffed into to treadmill so she stays open, she is a workhorse so like I said I'm not precious with her.

this is how I use the dodo pad in her, I put all the foods down for that day, usually my weight but since I am currently not weighing myself, that is absent from my current week, I put my food into a phone app to make sure I am on track cal wise and below my carb and sugar levels, I also put how many cals I've burnt in my workouts. This is more for my sense of achievement than anything else, I like to see my progress, I like to know that I am staying on track.

 Using my new StudioL2E plan it stamps, I also track my weeks worth of water intake, not being a natural water drinking lover this is sooo helpful! I hope that once I see it visually I will make MORE of an effort to get to that 8 glasses.
So there you have it, I dont have any other sections in this filofax, I am thinking of a meal planner section...so I can track our fave paleo meals and things like that...but for now, I am totally focused on just keeping it my health and fitness planner, and she works well.

Maybe I'll do another post talking about the big girl at the bottom of the pile....

hope you found this helpful!
see you soon
xx Courtney

Fighting the Black Dog - How I do it.

image from Bill Taylor

If you have been a reader for a long time, you know that I live my day to day life with an illness. I battle Depression day after day, and currently I am fighting it with no medication...just my diet and exercise and my art...but there are a few things that I do, each day to arm myself with enough happiness to get through another day.

Depression is a sucky illness, it can make your day go from 10 to 0 in a matter of seconds, it sucks us down into a hole which we try to claw our way out of over and over. I was diagnosed just after having eli, it started as post natal depression and then evolved into full blown depression. I've been on medication for years, and its only been the last year and a bit that I decided to try something different. What I was doing wasn't working...I was still stuck in the hole...and I wasn't making any headway trying to claw my way out.

so here are a few things I do in my day to day life, that helps me deal with the black dog.

1.Take each Day as it comes, living in the moment helps you put blinkers on so your're not getting lost in the things that are going on around you..you can focus on just now..just this moment...and live it to its fullest.

image from Poppies and Sunshine

2. Surround yourself with Light! - As kooky as this sounds, Sunlight is a natural mood lifter. Our moods and emotions are so in sync with how a day looks visually. I try and get up and open the curtains and windows. Every morning letting the light in is a simple way to make a day seem lighter and more uplifting, easier to deal with.

3. Give yourself permission to wear bright shoes! - This may seem silly...but honestly this is one of my go to things when I feel those emotions starting to creep in. Get yourself a pair of shoes that make you smile. I put on a flowy bright skirt and really bright shoes and walk into my day with colour!

image from Now and Then

4. Take some time out of your day, to walk in the sunlight. We need a little Vitamin D, yes you can get it in a pill form..but nothing beats taking a few moments to soak in some sunlight....I get some of my best ideas sitting on my back porch with my journal just daydreaming...we need that time to sit still and just soak up the rays of sunlight...close your eyes and look towards to light...you should see rainbow colours within  your eyelids...its beautiful. I need sunlight like I need air most days.

5. Feed your body With Love - In our current society, our food doesn't resemble food anymore...we are putting things into our bodies that is doing more harm then good! With additives and preservatives and colourings and sooo much hidden sugar...these are all factors in our moods...whether we like it or not! When we feed our body with junk and bad food, our mood reflects that food...and believe me, I did not understand this step..till I lived it. I went Paleo,  I eat whole foods, nothing processed, no sugars, as natural as I can get! and the lift in my general demeanor was very evident. When I moved house, we had a heap of takeaway because hard to do paleo while you move..and you could see the shift in mood! I felt heavy and sad, frustrated angry! (not just because I was moving) after we'd eaten, I felt so disgusting. So if there is one thing you do to fight depression...let it be this step, its a life changer.

image found via Pintrest

6. Take some time out of your day, to do some exercise, it may be small, it may be huge...but do it. I was and still am a hater of working out, but I do it, because I feel better after I've done it. I work out 6 days a week, for 45mins to an hour a day. Its part of my wellness plan, I know its good for me, I know it helps me keep above water.

It's not rocket science, and I know they may seem like huge steps...but I promise you, try them out for a week...it has taken me years to get to this stage, but I do it everyday, to fight the darkness. 

I hope this post has helped you in some way shape or form..and please if you want to talk to someone shoot me a email, I am a good listener - theinnerstitch@gmail.com 

Have a lovely Thursday.

xx Courtney